Saturday, June 21, 2014

A Day in the Life Of....



“Be bold—read much—write much—publish little—keep aloof from the little wits—and fear nothing.”(Edgar Allan Poe, 1843). AND… FEAR… NOTHING! These were the words I came away with when I spent the day with poet and published writer, Edgar Allan Poe. Just the sound of his name stirs dark, soulful metaphors like the doomed, fringe caucuses idolizing tormented surrealism. To say I was very much addicted to this reality is by its very definition an understatement!

During my time with Mr. Poe, he proposed to me the intimate nature of writing and that there is actually a “philosophy of composition”. The well-crafted lyrics, similes, alliterations, and allusions known mechanically by educators are just the tip of the proverbial ice-berg because it is how these “words” and ideas are artfully constructed and shared with the reader to create the reality that writers wish to conveye. Mr. Poe is, by all means, the master lyricist and master story teller. When he narrates, I believe, we all share his vision. “How it hangs upon the trees. A mystery of mysteries. Be silent in that solitude, Which is not loneliness- for then the spirits of the dead, who stood In life before thee, are again in death around thee”(Poe, 1809).

In summary, Mr. Edgar Allan Poe has shared his vision of writing and the grasp of emotional realism with his trainee. Through artful manipulation of words and ideas, the writer (or story teller) can impart a type of catharsis and identification with the players in the tragedy, thereby sharing their story (and emotions) with the reader/listener. The “philosophy of composition” garners favor of the participants as they relate to the plight of the under-appreciated, persecuted, downtrodden, etc…. Mr. Poe would describe it as such, “Be silent in that solitude, Which is not loneliness- for then the spirits of the dead, who stood In life before thee, are again in death around thee”(Poe, 1809)

Thursday, May 1, 2014

Obsession Versus Addiction

The Living and the DeadAccording to Christine Hammonds,  MS, LMHC,  obsession is "ritualistic" thinking or behavior and addiction has to do with feeling "satisfied". For example, "When you obsess, ritualistic routines are part of your everyday life.  Perhaps you comb your hair the same way you did as a teenager, you recheck all of the doors at night even though you have been told it is already locked, you replay the same conversation over and over again just trying to figure it out".... However, in an addiction, we are seeking an escape. "...you never feel satisfied unless using the substance.  Perhaps you drink alcohol to relax, take prescription drugs to numb the pain, shop for clothing to feel better about how you look, gamble to earn quick easy money, exercise to get the adrenaline high, look at porn to feel desirable, smoke to unwind, watch soap operas to feel romantic, play video games to feel successful or eat sugar to get energy.  All of these behaviors have roots in escaping from an undesirable place to a desirable place and in fantasy living" (Hammonds, C., 2013).

This may be all well and dandy,but the major difference is that some experts believe that an obsession can be managed and transformed into  success!  Dr. Alex  Lickerman  sees  obsession as not being as destructive as addiction and can be used to our advantage. "The challenge then is to make our obsessions function positively, controlling them so they don't control us, extracting the benefit of obsession without succumbing to its detriments" (Lickerman, A., 2010). Dr. Lickerman goes on to list several ways to manage an obsession such as:
  1. Distract yourself at varying intervals
  2. Accomplish a task that helps put your obsession behind you
  3. Focus on your greater mission
  4. Adopt a practice that grounds you
  5. Listen to what others tell you
In his article in Psychology Today, Obsession: How to make an obsession function properly, Dr. Lickerman states, "I'm not arguing here that we should seek to extinguish obsession; I'm arguing we should seek to control it. Our ability to bend our emotions to our will is poor, but not our ability to manage them" (Lickerman, A., 2010).

References:
Hammonds, C., The Difference Between an Obsession and an Addiction. Retrieved May 1, 2014 online from http://christinehammondcounseling.com/2013/03/07/the-difference-between-an-obsession-and-an-addiction/
Lickerman, A.,
Obsession: How to make an obsession function positively, Psychology Today. Retrieved May 1, 2014 online from http://www.psychologytoday.com/collections/201205/obsessed-or-addicted/obsess-success

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Friday, April 25, 2014

Awards 2014

Awards 2014Had awards ceremonies yesterday for the boys' respective classes. It started at 9 a.m. and finished up at a little after 11. Of course, having the kids at different levels in the spectrum made for a long wait. It was pretty cool though. I was able to get a couple good pictures of them and put them both together as though they were right next to each other and finished the comp off with the "Iron Dragon" roller coaster from Cedar Point. I thought it turned out pretty good, but there are a couple of light spots around my oldest son's hair that gives the photoshopping away. I'm fairly happy with it and could fix those light spots relatively easily if needed.

The thing is, being obsessive over these kinds of things and being a perfectionist, is something that could very well lead those of us with addictive personalities down the road to becoming addicted to certain behaviors and activities. There is a fine line between being professional and being (or trying to be) perfect.









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Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Your Computer Misses You!

Porn Addiction
         Porn addiction is the overindulgence or manipulation of pornographic material that leads to negative outcomes in one’s life.   The person addicted to porn cannot control the overwhelming impulse to watch porn and continues these destructive behaviors even in light of negative consequences.  Isolated from real human contact, porn addicts subsequently find themselves alone and with only their computer for company.   For the addict, pornography diminishes the actors as human beings and leads to a loss of intimacy.
         Porn addiction progresses similar to a drug addiction in that, after an earlier satisfying experience with pornography, individuals may begin to experience an overpowering compulsion to reach sexual fulfillment through that form of activity. Hence, the feedback loop between Internet porn and sexual satisfaction is positively strengthened. This in turn creates behavioral impulses that become more powerful as well as more frequent.  The links between sexual stimulation and porn addiction can escalate to a point where merely sitting down in front of a computer produces a sexual reaction.





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Thursday, April 3, 2014

Food Addiction or Eating Disorder Symptoms?

Eating Disorder SymptomsThrough  the Looking Glass

It would seem that eating disorder symptoms are pretty easily pinned to society’s views on the slim and glamorous. However, while a lot of people place culpability on grossly thin super models and media that extol the virtues of being thin, the fact of the matter is that this is only part of the equation. Like other addictions and compulsions, there may be some basis in a genetic component as well. When analyzing eating disorder symptoms, it becomes pretty clear that there is also a psychological connection to these symptoms as well. There seems to be a common link between the physiology and psychology of eating disorders and some would label that common link as depression. With that said, eating disorder symptoms are just the tip of a much larger problem.



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Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Maybe it's "Subconscious"

The Living and the Dead"However, some scientists argue that there is little evidence that most people have a specific drive toward self-destruction. According to them, the behaviors Freud studied can be explained by simpler, known processes, such as salience biases (e.g., a person abuses drugs because the promise of immediate pleasure is more compelling than the intellectual knowledge of harm sometime in the future) and risk calculations (e.g., a person drives recklessly or plays dangerous sports because the increases in status and reproductive success outweigh the risk of injury or death)". (wikipedia - web whore)

We may not always realize we have a death wish, but our actions will almost certainly give others a snapshot of what lies beneath our own jovial smiles and acceptable etiquette. But wait, this is counter-productive and deceptive, right? However, rationalizing what we do and why we do it is our own best defense and we are our own worse enemy. If we were to observe the characteristics we possess in others we would probably call it crazy or just plain ignorant, but the problem is we cannot percieve ourselves as other people do. Oh, how little we know about ourselves other than what we like and don't. Is it a selfish desire to do what we do? Can we really see beyond our own egos or pride? I find it very difficult. I find that if I rely on my own understanding, events do not always play out as I plan. But, If I choose a role model and make decisions based on documented evidence of this person or being's actions, I can almost always be certain that I am not acting alone. I, in essence, have a mentor who "guides" me through the rough times and maybe even to show me that my actions are self-destructive.

In my mind, Freud has been superceded by Maslow and Erikson who look at human needs and developmental stages throughout the life span. Maslow contends that certain human needs must be met before moving on to the next and Erikson believes that if a developmental stage is not met at a certain time, that an individual will linger in this stage until it is. But, I cannot help but correlate the stages of "delayed gratification" from Freud to those of substance abuse or addiction. It would seem that those of us who have addictive personalities get stuck in this stage and cannot "defer" our gratification until later. It is quite a conundrum...



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Monday, March 31, 2014

Abstinance is the Best Policy

The Living and the DeadReally been struggling today with the whole sobriety thing, but have been able to ward off the alcohol demons so far. It's really weird that the relapse can happen in the blink of an eye and when least expected. I will have to guard against "stinking" thinking and know when I become vulnerable to the temptation. 

On a more positive note,  I talked with my recruiter today and all set to get started on the 7th. I'm really looking forward to getting back to work and making the dollars! Selling my Blazer to live off the money while I'm in training and have a guy coming by in a little bit to take a test drive. He came by yesterday and looked at it, but couldn't drive it until today. Hopefully, he will love it as much as I have and put some cash in my hand :) The in-laws have bought a new car and are "giving" the wife their old one. It would really be a blessing  if we could at least  sell one of them soon.






Anyway, I've been alcohol free for 7 days and know I can't drink  today  either.  I'm hoping  it gets  easier as time goes by.  Until  next time,  stop by and check out my new articles on addiction at My Addicted Mind.Com and if you need to locate an AA meeting in the Akron, OH area, check this link - www.akronaa.org - for meetings and times. Thanks.